I didnít want to lose you;
You were d best,
But it seems Iíve lost you anyway
I can no longer pretend.
I know that you are angry
But I feel that I must mention,
Iím sorry that I hurt you
That was never my intention.
I wish that I could say to you
All the things I have wanted to,
Everything I have kept inside
The feelings I have cast aside.
I wish that I could talk openly
Tell you what is wrong with me;
Maybe then you would understand
And see that I had never planned
To screw things up in such a way
And lose you like I did that day.
I know that it was all my fault
And I hate myself so much,
I just canít stand you hating me
I really have fed up.
Iím sorry for the way I am
From the bottom of my heart itís true,
I thought that we could still be together
But I guess thatís up to you . . .
I wish that I was not this way,
I wish that I was more okay
I wish that I was more carefree.
I donít know why Iím the way I am
I just deal with it the best I can;
Iím truly sorry that I hurt you
But canít you see Iím hurting too?
Can I just say that
Just because I donít say how I feel
Doesnít mean I donít feel the same;
Just because you donít see me cry
Doesnít mean I donít feel the pain;
Just because I donít feel comfortable
Doesnít mean I donít want you there;
Just because I only want to be friends
Doesnít mean that I donít care;
Just because I donít know how to tell you
Doesnít mean I donít have words to say;
Just because Iím frightened,
Maybe thatís why I act this way?
Iím sorry for being me and Iím sorry that I hurt you.